Last night I had a dream that really threw me on so many levels.  It was so unrealistic and otherworld-like yet so vivid it felt real.  First of all, I was in some cartoon-like town where everyone lived in small, connected houses.  I lived with my mom and Jessi, but Jessi was visiting her dad.  I had a friend named Peggy who lived upstairs in our little house and she had a cute little baby who was just starting to crawl.  She dressed like an anime doll and I loved her style.  We talked every day and I babysat her son.  She didn't look like anyone I had ever seen in real life, but I felt a connection to her.  She was petite, and looked mixed or maybe Rican with curly hair.  She always wore striped stockings and ballerina flats and really bright, bold colors.  She looked like a real-life anime doll and she always seemed very happy.

As I walked through the town, I saw Miki (the singer who used to sing with T-Squad).  She made it a point to stop me and tell me that KB had moved in down the street from me.  I don't remember the entire conversation but it was something about Marcel and finding interesting people.  And then when I was about to leave, she stopped me again and said, "He's been looking for you."  I wasn't sure whether I was happy or afraid.  I walked through the town, halfway trying to avoid him but a part of me was hoping I'd run into him.  I saw him but tried to duck before he saw me.  He was talking to some girl so I went to a garden nearby and picked peaches from a tree.  When I got back home my mom was really distraught and I asked what's wrong.  She just kept saying, "That's not Peggy.  It can't be Peggy!  No!"  So I went into the bathroom and found that my friend Peggy had hung herself, and her baby was crawling nearby.  I couldn't see her face, I just remember seeing her legs dangling and knowing there was no life left in her.  I wanted to cry but I was simply too shocked to react.  I finally pulled myself together and called 911.

The town got a bit darker and everyone was mourning the loss.  I held her baby and realized I would now be the guardian of my godson.  He was too young to understand what was going on, he just cooed and played.  Then after I lay him down to sleep and helped calm my mom down I went outside.  I saw a horse-drawn carriage and an elderly lady who closely resembled my grandmother was in the back.  She had a glow and my friend Peggy was guiding the horse.  She winked at me and the carriage disappeared into a cloud.  I looked up the street and saw KB knocking on someone's door.  He had on one of the black t-shirts I gave him for his bday one year, and a matching hat.  His hair was tied back into a kinda frizzy ponytail.  Miki was across the street and she signaled for me to go talk to him.  I hesitated cuz I didn't know how he would react.  I was afraid to face him for some reason, but I didn't know why.

I finally got tired of Miki mouthing, "Go, go!  Go talk to him!"  So I went.  I tried to act as if I didn't see him, but he saw me.  He shook his head and said, "Marcel's not home."  Then he walked toward me.  He opened his arms, inviting me to hug him.  I did, and he held me tight and said in my ear, "I heard about your friend Peggy.  I'm so sorry."  I felt tears welling up in my eyes and said, "Thank you."  Then he completely surprised me and gave me a sweet kiss on the lips.  Usually when I dream that I'm kissing him, his face becomes hazy or I wake up before we actually connect.  But this time it felt so real and so passionate!  He gave me two sweet little kisses, then looked into my eyes and kissed me passionately.  I said, "I wasn't expecting that."  He said, "I've been waiting..." 

His voice trailed off then I woke up.  Why now?  Just when I'm trying to get over him, I have this dream.  WHY????  And what was the significance of "Peggy"?  And why the hell was Miki there?  I don't get this....